Javik and Liara are both actually five years old
I have one more day in Florida and then I have to come home.
I get to come home to reality, and adjust to the change that happened the day before I left. I get to get used to day to day life without him.
I’ve been decent at avoiding thinking about the whole thing today and yesterday, but the dread that comes along with knowing I can’t avoid it once I get home is…dampening. It’s heavy and oppressive.
So I guess I’ll get home, rest up, get my work schedule, and go get me a dog. Maybe he or she will just consume my life and fill the void in my heart with a new love. I can fawn over my dog instead of worrying about what I don’t have anymore. I can transfer the love.
And when I get weak he or she can lick the tears from my face.
I know I need some time to cry. To cope with my feelings. To sew up the cuts in my heart instead of just putting band-aids on them and hope it works.
But those band-aids need to last me until I get back to Indiana.
Keep an eye out for turtles!!!
* pictured is Eastern Box Turtle (T. carolina)
1.Do you want a boyfriend or girlfriend?
2.When did your last hug take place?
3.Are you a jealous person?
4.Are you tired right now?
5.Do you chew on your straws?
6.Have you ever been called a tease?
7.Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
8.Do you cry easily?
9.What should you be doing right now?
10.Are you a heavy sleeper?
11.Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months?
12.Are you mad at someone right now?
13.Do you believe in love?
14.What makes you laugh no matter what?
15.Who was the last person you talked to?
16.Do you get butterflies around the person you like?
17.Will you get married?
18.When was the last time you smiled?
19.Does anyone like you?
20.Do you secretly like someone?
21.Who was the first person you talked to today?
22.Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
23.What are you NOT looking forward to?
24.What ARE you looking forward to?
25.Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they loved you, and meant it?
26.Suppose you see your ex kissing another person what would you do?
27.Do you plan on moving out within the next year?
28.Are you a forgiving person?
29.How many TRUE friends do you have?
30.Do you fall for people easily?
31.Have you ever fallen for your ex’s best friend?
32.What’s the last thing you put in your mouth?
33.Who was the last person you drove with?
34.How late did you stay up last night and why?
35.If you could move somewhere else, would you?
36.Who was the last person you took a picture of?
37.Can you live a day without TV?
38.When was the last time you were extremely disappointed?
39.Three names you go by..
40.Are you currently in a relationship?
41.What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
42.Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
43.What’s your current problem?
44.Have you ever had your heart broken?
45.Your thoughts of long distance relationships?
46.How many kids do you want to have?
47.Have you ever found it hard to tell someone you like them?